Dont Worry That It's Not Good Enough For Anyone Else to Hear..

Go ahead finish is you know you want to..I think that is what hit me as I sat and watched the Elmo show. Here is another whole generation of kids that are growing up on Big Bird, Grover and the new guy ELMO... When you think about that circle of life thing it is amazing. A wise( and very attractive) person said " I feel like I'm finally hitting my "sweet spot". Here I come, 2007!" I echo that. This is going to be the 33 year I am on the earth and I may finally be seeing things differently. I am not searching to figure out who I am, I am not worried about where I am going. I am finally able see things where they are. I had a good weekend. We did see Elmo, it was Devins birthday, Two years ago he wasnt even part of our family. It snowed today so the boys and I played outside a long time. We made a presnt for Phil.I think what I realized somewhere between these are the people in your neighborhood and fuzzy and blue is if you spend all this time planning your life and not living it its gone before you get there. SO JUST SING...SING ALONG

I now pronouce you Husband and Wife...

A few pictures of the wedding. The big group is Peters family or my new step brothers and sisters. There are 4 boys and 2 girls the rest are there wives/husbands. ( daughter in front row in black and white, son standing next to my Mom, son on the other side of Peter, daughter in pink sweater, son in yellow shirt in back row and son in blue shirt in front row.) I cant tell you there names because I couldn't remember them all. They were nice but they were not as excited about the wedding as my Mom has lead on. They don't seem as if they plan on seeing us.( when the wedding was over they said It was nice meeting you we will see you some time I assume.) Its over. Now lets see what happens from here.

D Day

Today I have a brother and sister. Tomorrow I will have some combination of the like that equal 9 all together. Let the festivities begin.

Mandy not looking forward to this at all

What kind of world do you want?

A servant heart? When I graduated from those hallowed halls at G.C. we were all told to have a servants heart I don't think I realized that I accomplished that until yesterday. I am humbled by the world that I am a part of everyday at work. It is ironic because I do not feel at all is if my main mission is the obvious one in the old people they are taken care of I am amazed at how I have taken on the staff that works there. I bring them toys before Christmas to give there kids for Christmas. I bring them heaters when the gas is shut off at there house. I lend them money to get to and from work but its not the tangible things that humble me. Yesterday I spend the afternoon at the Children's Hospital my coworkers 6 month old grandson is sick and she needed help filling out some papers and she called me to help her. As I was driving there is hit me I have for now found my niche. This is what I was called to do. As we sat in the hospital room and she cried and I listened to her it was humbling. I feel silly for the things I complain about. This is a baby that has such a rough start and is such a victim of his circumstance.Often people ask me aren't you afraid in the city and I can honestly say no not one bit. I am the minority but I never feel out of place. I never for a minute feel like I don't belong. The city is so different from where I live , so different as I left the hospital my co worker said "Hey Amanda. I love you." and I realized that it really was closer than I ever realized. Thanks for the insight and the opportunity. I am humbled again.